Get Out Of My Head!

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Sometimes, it seems like I am my own worst enemy. I get stuck in an unhealthy state of mind and cannot seem to snap out of it. I just want to switch my thoughts off at times. I feel like I am not safe in my own mind. I let myself  get trapped behind my negative thoughts like I don’t have any control over it. I have been just so angry, anxious and stressed lately yet, I don’t even know exactly why. Maybe it’s because of a combination of things that I have been bottling up inside. Who knows.

I find myself focusing on every little negative thing and not keeping an optimistic view on life, which is really odd as I usually am one to have a positive state of mind. I keep trying to define what it means to be young, what youth should feel like and how it should be spent. I feel like I have not really lived yet so I keep waiting for this “something” amazing to happen. As the days pass, the more anxious I get that I am missing out on my youth.

It’s amazing how easy we can overlook our blessings. I keep chasing this idea of happiness, while I have it right here with me: I am healthy, young, have a loving boyfriend, a good job and I am fortunate enough to be able to share my thoughts with YOU.

From now one, I am going to control what I can: my mind. I only have one life to live, so I better  live it happily. In other words, I am going to get my happiness back and hold on to it. I don’t have time for frowns. I woke up this morning and literally told myself I was going to have a great day. Guess what? I did.

I send all my positive energy to you, where ever you are. Remember, control what you can. You can’t help certain situations from happening, but you can control how you handle them. Don’t be a Bitter Betty like I was lol.

I am leaving you with this uplifting song by Kirk Franfklin on this beautiful Sunday afternoon. I JUST found out about it this morning and it was just what I needed to hear.

..xo

-J

 

Jenn

Jenn

Hi My name is Jennifer and I am a Haitian/Canadian who is into beauty and photography. I hope that you enjoy my blog and don't be shy :) xo

8 Comments

  1. I can relate! One I felt like I was missing out on my youth just as you said. Like my life was passing me by, and I was just stuck in one spot, one state of mind. I’m only 23, and what helped me was to definitely start to build a relationship with Jesus like I was suppose to, and not just say I’m a Christiana. When you tune into God everything else will gradually fall into place. Even when you think your suppose to get upset or sad about a situation you won’t because you have hope in God that everything will be alright. I pray that you will continue to keep your positive state of mind.!!! 🙂

  2. I’m glad you are choosing to be happy and enjoy life. A struggle I have had.
    From experience I can tell you, waiting for that ‘something’ to happen is futile. I’ve been waiting since I was your age – I’m 40 now.
    We just have to recognize that it’s happening all around us all the time. It’s tough sometimes – but keep trying. Keep being positive and keep choosing to be happy and enjoy life 🙂

  3. Just found your blog. The thoughts that come into your head are just that: thoughts. They have no power unless you indulge them. When we were children we were born in “light.” And as we get older, meet new people, have different earthly experiences thoughts from others get lodged into our psyche. That is why it is said that “words” are so powerful.

    The negative and the positive thoughts will always be with us. Our freedom to “love” is to “choose which thoughts we will live from.” What I do is just get still with the thoughts and realize that the stillness that is observing the thoughts is the real me. The “thoughts” are not me. Those thoughts pass. Have you ever noticed how what the negative things you were thinking last week are no longer with you. Yes they may come and resurface but they will go away again. But the strongest thought and feeling in the world given by our creator is “Love” and is with you always. You even at this time have enough “love” to know that those negative thoughts isn’t a place from where you wish to live your life: you see that is “self love”. Each day when we are all tempted to do something wrong(because of negative thoughts) we don’t do it: why? because it is greater to love one another.

    yes we do make mistakes sometimes and get mired in gossip and negative behavior; but just like the video there is a new day, or there is a “new moment”. There is redemption and there is reconciliation. Just declare in your heart the mistake you made in giving these negative thoughts more power than the love that is in your heart: and you will see what is meant by: This too shall pass.

  4. i love your post, and especially that picture. It captures everything you were feeling atm

  5. wow, it takes a lot of guts to let your raw emotions flow like that.ive felt the exact same way lately

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