Sometimes, it seems like I am my own worst enemy. I get stuck in an unhealthy state of mind and cannot seem to snap out of it. I just want to switch my thoughts off at times. I feel like I am not safe in my own mind. I let myself get trapped behind my negative thoughts like I don’t have any control over it. I have been just so angry, anxious and stressed lately yet, I don’t even know exactly why. Maybe it’s because of a combination of things that I have been bottling up inside. Who knows.
I find myself focusing on every little negative thing and not keeping an optimistic view on life, which is really odd as I usually am one to have a positive state of mind. I keep trying to define what it means to be young, what youth should feel like and how it should be spent. I feel like I have not really lived yet so I keep waiting for this “something” amazing to happen. As the days pass, the more anxious I get that I am missing out on my youth.
It’s amazing how easy we can overlook our blessings. I keep chasing this idea of happiness, while I have it right here with me: I am healthy, young, have a loving boyfriend, a good job and I am fortunate enough to be able to share my thoughts with YOU.
From now one, I am going to control what I can: my mind. I only have one life to live, so I better live it happily. In other words, I am going to get my happiness back and hold on to it. I don’t have time for frowns. I woke up this morning and literally told myself I was going to have a great day. Guess what? I did.
I send all my positive energy to you, where ever you are. Remember, control what you can. You can’t help certain situations from happening, but you can control how you handle them. Don’t be a Bitter Betty like I was lol.
I am leaving you with this uplifting song by Kirk Franfklin on this beautiful Sunday afternoon. I JUST found out about it this morning and it was just what I needed to hear.